I’ve made some bold, out-of-the-box moves in the last several years. Whether it’s a literal move to different cities/countries for a time or certain personal decisions I’ve made in my life. I felt something in my gut, listened to my intuition, followed it, made it happen and a short whirlwind later, I was living it.
There was this freedom and expansion initially and then there was always that feeling of “Oh. My. God. What the hell was I thinking?!?! Nope. I want to go back. Go back, go back, go back. This is scary and I have NO idea what I’m doing.” (I mean, moving to Spain for 4 months on my own when I knew no one and spoke very little Spanish? Talk about scary, vulnerable shit. LOL)
But then I moved past those feelings. The flailing as I free fall, thinking I’m way over my head. I kept calm and carried on because, in my mind, I had no other choice. Once outside of my comfort zone, going back is not an answer.
Sitting scared shitless outside of my comfort zone was and is my “plan.” Because I know allowing myself to feel that discomfort and work through it, exploring and discovering in that heightened, sensitive state will make living even more magical and real. I’ll learn about my world and myself even more.
I have a fear of being stuck, of waiting for too long and never being able to do something again, whether it’s travel, work, experiences, moves, etc…That I would one day look back and regret I didn’t do something when I had the chance.
This is a good and bad thing I guess.
Although, I’ve had to learn that I need to weed out the “gut feelings” that are actually coming from a place of fear and insecurity, rather than actual intuition. I used to think that by changing my external environment, I’d be able to take care of an internal insecurity or issue. That by moving to a different location, it would magically be gone. Poof. But it only served to suppress whatever issue it was, only to have it come out again in my new environment.
All the moves I’ve made though, whether subtle or mildly drastic, have all shaped the person I am today. Stretched me. Made me grow, personally, professionally, as a friend, daughter, partner and coach. I was forced to face some of my inner demons head on in order to make it through those vulnerable moments. Even if there were scary times at the beginning, I never regretted what I learned. I never regretted my experiences and choices.
Don’t wait for life to happen to you. Or for life to just simply go by. Do something to create the life, environment and changes you want and need. Ones that will support you and your higher purpose and passions. Take action. Go for it. Go. Do. Don’t wait. Life is happening NOW. Enjoy it, because it’s yours.